what a cloudy day it is today

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as we share abundantly in Christ's sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too. If we are afflicted, it is for your comfort and salvation; and if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which you experience when you patiently endure the same sufferings that we suffer. Our hope for you is unshaken, for we know that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in our comfort.  2nd Corinthians 1: 3-7

healing & refreshment

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones. Proverbs 3: 5-7
This is a blog about a small crisis I'm having. If that's not what you're up for right now, you might skip this one. I'm writing now because I have two tests and a paper due next week and I couldn't be more stressed out. Therefore, it's a perfect time to blog it out.
This semester has been wild and I can't believe it's already half-way done. I've made new friends and started going to a new church and have really thrown myself into my extracurriculars. School, not so much. (sorry Mom!)
I am so in love with Antioch, my church. It's been my saving grace this semester. I look forward to every Sunday when I get to worship with other college students and Wedne…

seek Me whole heartedly


it's been a tough couple of weeks. this Arabic program I'm in is no joke and it's much more difficult than I had previously anticipated. I haven't had much time to blog or do anything other than homework honestly. it's not fun. I've had more than my fair share of freakouts. the first session did not go well for me, at all. I got my first F. not the joking type of F I talk about when I get a B when I thought I would get an A- I got an F. not just one but two. it's a really hard realization when you finally see that something might be too hard for you. it's even harder when you realize that praying for wisdom and help on a test won't do anything if you aren't seeking God whole heartedly.

this summer has been so tough that I forgot why I'm here. I forgot why I have the ability to be here. I forgot that God isn't someone you text at the last minute when you need something. God should be my everything. my every day, my every moment. maybe…

good, good Father

today I am SO grateful that I serve a good, good Father! oh, my heart is so full from what He has done. this past Sunday, I decided that I would go church hopping for the short time I will be in Enid and I landed at Sojourn Church. I knew about Sojourn because one of my former teachers [shout out to Jay Mendenhall and Sophomore Bible!] talked a lot about it when I was at OBA. first, I felt at home the moment I walked into the building! everyone was so friendly and talkative and the service even started later than I had expected because everyone was just fellowshipping so hard. the sermon was on Genesis 22. we talked about the background of Abraham and Sarah and how Ishmael and Isaac came to be. we talked a lot about faith. Abraham and Sarah didn't have faith in God and that is how Ishmael came to be. when God told Abraham to sacrifice Isaac,  it was the ultimate test of faith and Abraham passed. I was so moved that the entire sermon was based on this one passage. most of the churc…

what GRACE ! !

Scars and struggles on the way But with joy our hearts can say Never once did we ever walk alone Carried by Your constant grace Held within Your perfect peace Never once, no, we never walk alone Never once did we ever walk alone Never once did You leave us on our own You are faithful, God, You are faithful

boy, God is ~~so good~~.
I accidentally woke up more than two hours early on this beautiful Sunday morning and I'm so grateful because I had some time to just sit back and bask in grace for a little bit. as I got to thinking I remembered a song [seen above] that's been stuck in my head for a few weeks. in fact, when I first heard this song I was at a church I had never been to before. it was a Sunday and I had been studying all day and I was incredibly stressed out. I remembered that this Antioch had a 5:30 pm service so I left the library and went, really just as a study break but ~man~ and I glad I did.
 how wonderful is our God to take the time to remind me that no matter how stress…

s u m m e r

there were long nights
there were tears
there were [many] study breaks
and now it's finally here
it's S U M M E R
I'm now a week into summer and if you're in contact with me you've heard me complain about how absolutely and painfully bored I am BUT I'm grateful to be resting up for what's to come! I plan to spend the next ten days with my best friend, Carson, because after that I'll be travelling all the way to Austin, Texas for the rest of the summer. I'll be taking a summer Arabic intensive at the University of Texas [horns down]. Don't get me wrong, it's going to be rough but I'm so excited to spend the summer in this city! I've never been so far south (sad I know) but I hear lots of fun things about Austin. Usually, I say that the only thing I don't hate about Texas is the great culmination of capitalism that is Buccee's Gas Station but I hope to add Austin to that statement. So, if you have any fun suggestions for what …

count it all joy

count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know the testing of your faith produces steadfastness
james 1: 2-3

so many incredible, beautiful things have happened to me this year. delta gamma. student congress. ways and means committee chair. crimson club. arabic flagship program. mock trial. friends of a lifetime. 
I remind myself to be grateful for each of these things while not calling them blessings because God doesn't bless us with material things or things that will help us get into a good law school or frivolous things. No, God blesses us with faith and grace and steadfast love and it's sometimes difficult to remember that. 
for all of the wonderful things that I have encountered, just as many bad things have happened. sometimes, college can be frustrating and lonely and it's so easy to forget that no person's opinion of me matters more than the Father's. james 1:2-3 reminds me that each thing that happens, good, bad, or see…
I had the amazing opportunity to be the president of the Foreign Film Club this semester. This is a club that I started with several of my friends that gets together once a month and watches a movie from another culture and language. It's really awesome because afterward we get the opportunity to talk about what we learned from it, things that surprised us, things we could identify with. My favorite movie that we watched this semester was The Kite Runner. This is the story of an Afghani boy who is best friends with the son of his house servant. They grow apart due to a series of events but later reunite if only in spirit. The story occurs at the time when the Taliban is taking over Afghanistan. We saw the way the culture of Kabul changed over time and discussed and compared the visual with things we've learned in school. I really love the foreign film club and the opportunities for discussion and bonding that it offers for its members!
This semester HASA, the Hispanic American Student Association, got together and put on some super cool events for OU. First I want to say that I am so impressed with this amazing group of students and what they've done this year. They're the biggest multicultural group on campus and they just do so much for the OU community. One of the events I got to attend was a lunch in the Oklahoma Memorial Union. There was food served from several different Latin American countries and it was really quite an experience. There was music and dancing and lots of yummy food. It was such an amazing experience to get the opportunity to be a part of this lunch and be exposed to a culture that I'm not normally exposed to. The fact that this incredible group of students put all of this together is just amazing to me!

a short list of things I am grateful for

I am so happy. I couldn't pinpoint why or when this happened but over break I've realized that I am so, so happy. I am blessed beyond belief and so grateful that even though I deserve nothing, God sees me and wants so much more for me. And so, here is a short list of things I am grateful for.

My mom, and also all of the cats and dogs that she takes care of while I am away at...

College. The place where I have met so many incredible people, including but not limited to:

and Austin

I'm also grateful for the old friends who I know love me so much more than I deserve:

and Ivey

Speaking of Ivey, we had coffee just the other morning and in talking about Arabic, law school, and studying abroad, she reminded me to be so grateful that I have hope and a future.

Those last two, they're probably the most important. Hope. Future. I am so incredibly excited for everything that is to come…